Babies: past and present

Sorry for the LONG break. Sometimes we need them. Especially someone as opinionated as I. But lets move on from that and catch you up :) Today marks a somber day for my family. 5 years ago our youngest son passed away from complications of a heart defect. He was 1 month old and the light and joy we needed. Even in his passing he gives us strength to go through every day with our heads held high. Dont get me wrong the pain was, is, and will continue to be unbearable at times. But I would rather suffer this pain then have a single person I care about have a moment of it. I am okay with this cross to bear for that reason. Today also marks a joyous moment. I am 18 weeks pregnant. This baby has given us a MAJOR scare already. And with the hopes it's a girl the drama only seems fitting. Life always keeps us on our toes. Our children even more so. They drive me up a wall, but they are the reason I stay grounded. My oldest and his personality that can only be compared to mine and his love of Lego building. Oh, how his mind works! The current youngest at home and his life is grand thought process. Constant laughs with that one. Our son who passed and his strength and will to fight. We all could learn lesson from his gentle soul. Then there is our soon to be next. May he/she find happiness in this crazy world. I know they will only bring more to mine :)